Initially, after we came out of hospital we of course knew
we wanted to try for another baby soon, but it would be 6 months away, and we
were grieving. So baby/kid stores were avoided, facebook was soon avoided due
to friends having successful deliveries. All my favourite movies where stories
of pregnancies and 3 months on I am still avoiding. Certainly labour
stories I avoid like the plague now.
3 Months on, how have things developed?
Well I have met a dear friend’s baby girl. Hearing of her
successful birth ( no details, just that
she had had her little girl) was a very difficult time for us, so it was quite
a big step to meet this special little girl. Thankfully its been a wonderful experience and I am soaking up all the hugs I can.
This certainly took out the sting for me, so other little babies were not so
scary, and I slowly started to creep back into baby stores.
I had a voucher for baby bunting, a voucher I had been
looking at in despair since arriving home. So I finally made the decision to go
and find a gift I could buy for our next baby. I spend 1 hour in the
store, seeing pregnant women, newborns and looking at all items in the store. Another
hurdle done!!
Chloe is very much respected, honoured and I have made some
art for her and our little family. I have picked up a few necklaces to keep her
with me always and we have had little 'Chloe rings' made up for my husband and I.
I don't think i'll be able to watch or hear about labour stories as I used to, but I'm grateful to be able to think about our next baby, nicknamed LB with fondness and excitement.
K